Who I Am

i have a good friend that just made a blog & i was just on his site i saw that he was writing poems check him out --> http://awaveindaocean.blogspot.com
& i was thinking i haven't wrote poems in foreverrrrrrr
this was my first poem that i would write on my blog..its called who i am. wrote this in 2006


Who I Am


i am who i am, i cant change now im not who i was,
but i was who i am i dont expect much and i trust even less
i only respect those who deserve the respect i want what i
need, i need what i want i deserve what i get, but dont get
what i deserve. i can take pain and laugh in its face but the
reason i haven't is cause i needed help. what i alwayz think
is never what i say. I've think too much, but I've alwayz been
that way i broke my own heart for those who tried,even though
i never broke their hearts. I dont talk very much,cause i dont have
much to say but I'm a good listner if you have something to say.
i just wannna be like, i just wanna be loved, but that's not all
my dreams are made of. i alwayz love to dream, its much better
then reality. but sometimes i cant distinguish my reality from dreams.
i could never hurt anyone, anyone but myself i knock myself down to see
who'll pick me up i alwayz take my chances. but not on my life. cause when my lifes involved the chances are against me. I'm much more obsessed, than i am in love not to ever say im not, but only to say i am. for me love is obession and obession is love. not everyone would agree but everyone is not me. This is just who i am, and it's just what i do, so understand me and listen to what i say then you would understand
why i live this way.

Happppyyy JULY 4th Everybodyyyyyyy

i hope everybody have a happy and save july 4th....today i goin tha a cookout & chill with the fam & tomorrow i want tha do a lil shoppin before we start the fireworks...but i dont think that is goin tha happen...just wanted tha come & say happy july 4th because i kno i wont be on tomorrow

Gone But Never Forgotten

so while i was at work today we was on our break and i was goin thru my facebook...i happen tha get a message & it was from my auntie tellin me my uncle buddy will pass today..so my heart is goin so fast..cuz im like no not my uncle buddy not my father brother.. its been 7 years since my dad pass awayz goin on 8...and i still think about him...so my sis and my mom call me & said the family is going tha be at tha hospital so im like ok i can make it...get tha see him one last chance..so when i get tha the family is the and i was talkin tha my cuzin...and he told me before you go into the room i just want tha let you kno uncle buddy passed right tha my heart had stop...it was no chance for me tha tell him everything,that i will miss him..he died 2 hours before i got tha...i couldnt stop cryin...it hurt me so much..i just don't kno how im goin tha get thru this...but im goin tha try.

I was A daddy's Girl...i love my daddy! everyday,everywhere,anywhere he went i was with him...we alwayz did something together anythign you name it,then it all turn around one sunday at church...tha service was nice and they was about tha end it...they was lettin people say tha last few words..so it was my father turn tha go up...he started talkin about god and then out of no where he fell on tha floor, i saw it with my own eyes my father was tookin from me....
doing that time i was young so the church took all the kids down stairs and they called my mom cuz she went tha a different church then me..and they took my dad tha the hospital when the told us that it was nuttin left they can do...thatz when i couldnt do nuttin i was numb everything didnt matter tha me at tha point i just wanted my daddy back the one that was with me for everything.

R.I.P Uncle Buddy i will alwayz miss you
R.I.P Daddy Will Alwayz Miss You