Not For Me....Maybe Never Was

I'm getting tha the point...when i realize college isn't really for me...i started my new class and we already get work over top of more work...so im just like F*ck it..I can't take it no more im goin back home..i do the work but i cant get it all done...i get stressed more & more i just stop doing everthing...what makes it so bad is because this wasnt even a major that i wanted...but i had tha get into some college before i lost my "GRANT MONEY" so i was like hell. this computer information systems class is fucking me wayyyyyyy over.i think im goin tha stay with graphic designing something that i love & want tha major in. i told most of my friends my plan of what im doin ..but the only people that i havent told yet is my FAMILY!...when spring break come i will sit down with them..and have that talk...i would be probably applying tha UDC..thatz where i was going tha go before i came here. but i think i need tha do what is best for me. i already know that my GPA is not goin tha meet the standards so why still stay and have hopes..they will be kicking me out..YES! they will. this shyt just makes me so stressed i try tha hide the fact that i am stressed...because i dont really want people tha know that i am...give them more tha talk about...most of the students & the teacher here are WHITE! and it seem like they dont like black people..what makes me even more mad...is because i am the ONLY! THE ONLY! color person in my class & it seem like i get treated different because of the color of my skin its like when i need help with something.i dont get it...but everybody else do..im thinking tha myself wat did i do?.i can aleast get some help.but im not goin tha get mad...things happen for a reason...ill move on...well thatz it for today. just needed tha get that off my mind. OK OK Feel A lil better!